Thursday, January 15, 2009

Adding to what I had to say in my entry yesterday:

On my Dad's anniversary my brother ended up coming down as well. He sent me a text and said, "I sure wish I could have Buffalo Wild Wings" I sent him one back "You could if you came down" He sent one, "OK" and rung the doorbell. It was such a nice surprise. So everyone, except his wife, were together for one of the hardest days in our lives. I just doesn't seem possible. Living a year without my Dad just doesn't seem possible. Also, Courtney, in case you still read the blog, THANK YOU so very much for your thoughtfulness! She did such an amazing thing for me. She sent me this on the anniversary:

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

I went to the dr Monday, it's not my blood sugar or my thyroid. Who knows? I have to go Friday for all-day testing. I hope that test comes back good and then everything will be clear. Then I just have to wait 6 months to drive again.

My baby boy will be 1 year old in 14 days. Where does the time go? He's growing like a weed and he's the sweetest little boy. He loves giving kisses. He talks all the time. He loves helping his mommy. He says, mama all the time. He's started saying "uh oh", "bye bye", and "book" book sounds like boo. He's so laid back, he reminds me of his Grandpa Tommy. Oh I just love him!

Friday, January 09, 2009

I've been very sick this week. On Monday morning I had a seizure. It was the first one I've ever had in my life. My sister and her bf were here. They called 911 and the ambulance came and got me. I was in there for two nights. I had all sorts of tests ran on me, thank God for insurance! Today I went and got more blood work done. Next Friday I'm supposed to have a prolonged EEG test done. So, I'll have to be at the neurologists office all day long. But, I think we figured out what it is. This morning I had a terrible headache and nothing was getting rid of it. I had a craving for m&m's, so we got some and my headache went away. Then Eric remembered that in the emergency room the nurse mentioned that my blood sugar was low. So I looked it up and it says that can cause seizures. My mom talked to the nurse that comes to her work and she said it sure can. She also told her that I've been extremely cold and tired for a long time and the nurse said that can cause that too. So, I'm going to call my dr on Monday and see if they'll test me for that and hopefully I won't have to have the EEG thing done.

Tomorrow will be a year since my Daddy passed away. I really can't believe it. I don't want to believe it. I miss him. I still haven't dealt with his passing. I don't want to. I miss him with every part of me. My mom, sister and her bf are coming down tomorrow. I wish my brother was too but I guess his wife's family is having a family reunion tomorrow too so he can't. Where did the year go? Why does he have to be gone? My only solice is knowing that he's in Heaven not suffering anymore. At least he's getting to roll down those big hills that he always dreamed of. So, to the best Daddy that ever did walk this earth, THANK YOU! You are such an inspiration to me and I love you more than words can ever express.