My sister is 18 now. We threw her a surprise party, I don't think she was surprised lol. It was kinda hard that day, to be expected. My brother had to work and couldn't be at the party. We surprised her again when we were at the restaurant when her bf brought her in. She was really surprised then and really appreciated it. Another surprise came for her when our brother was able to get off work and showed up to surprise her too. She cried. It was very special that he was able to be there. Eric, Ryan and I bought her a necklace with her birthstone in it. She loved it, so do I lol. I can't believe she's 18. I remember the day she was born. I was so excited. It was late at night and I was sleeping. My dad woke me up and we all loaded up in the car (which was new by the way and they stacked tons of towels in the front seat for reasons I didn't understand for a long time lol). We went over to the hospital that was 15 mins away. There was nobody to sit with my brother or I. We were so tired and started to fall asleep and this creepy guy came in and told us, "it's ok to go to sleep". Well that was enough for the both of us, we were wide awake then. I started bouncing off the walls and then my dad came in and told us we had a little sister. My brother was mad and sat there sulking. They brought her down the hall and he wouldn't come out and see her. I did though and she was so beautiful. I fell in love. She's been a blessing from the moment she entered my life and I couldn't ask for a better sister. I love her! She's the bestest Bisty never!

I made this cake for her, homemade I'm pretty proud of the way it turned out, hours of labor went into this lol

Oh, I'm so excited!!!! My baby boy said his first word today, "mama"!!!! I was hoping it would be mama. I was pushing dada more but hoping for mama lol. I love that little boy! He's a beautiful wonderful miracle and I thank God for him.

My brother and his wife are going to have a baby! She sadly lost the last baby. He/she is up in heaven with his/her Grandpa Tommy. She was about 5 weeks when she lost that baby. They never even got to go to the dr. They lost it before she could go to the dr. So, when they found out they were expecting again we all waited to tell people to make sure this baby would be ok. It was heartbreaking enough without having to go back and tell everyone. Well they went to the dr yesterday. The heartrate was 150 and she's due May 13. I can't wait! Hopefully she'll have it a little early and have it on his/her Grandpa's bday, May 6.

My beautiful sister won homecoming queen last Friday. She's the most beautiful queen I've ever seen. I'm so very proud of her. The only downside to the evening was her bf didn't get king. For some odd reason people voted her as queen and not her bf as king. It doesn't seem right. I felt bad for her, she was torn. I don't blame her. But, she deserved it. She's doing everything she can this year. She's on the yearbook staff, secretary of her class, she's planning a senior trip, you name it she's involved this year. I'm so proud of her. A few years ago she was hanging out with the not-so-good crowd. The girls she hung out with were not good influences on her. She met her bf, Colter. He was the best thing that ever could have happened to her. God definitely put him in her life to get her away from the old friends. I love that guy for her. I couldn't have picked a better guy. While we were in WA he went over to my mom's house to make sure she was ok and ask if she needed anything, so sweet! Anyways, back to homecoming... The girls had to have their father/father figure walk with them to give them to their escorts. My brother walked with my sister. It was an emotional time for us. I felt sad for her. She has so many things coming up in her life that should involve dad. I'm very glad she has my brother, but it's not the same. It can't be the same. I didn't put a picture of the guy who won king because, quite frankly, I don't have one. I was in shock after Colter didn't win and I didn't get a picture.

Well Jenn did this a while back and I just wanted to see if I could come up with 101 things about myself, so here goes:

1. My nickname given by my dad was Puddin' Shack
2. My nickname by my brother growing up was Thi's Thoul
3. My dad wrote me a song, it went as follows: "I love my Puddin' Shack, because she scratches my back, and that is why I love my Puddin' Shack, Smack, Snack, Shack"
4. I miss my dad more than anything in the whole wide world, he's been gone 8 months today
5. I listened to a song he wrote "My Family" last night, I cried
6. My nickname from my sister is Bisty
7. My husband and mom call me Chelle. Eric introduces me as Chelle, I have to tell people it's actually Michelle
8. I collect ink pens, I love them
9. I love folding baby clothes, they're so tiny and cute
10. I love the smell of a clean house
11. Clutter bothers me
12. I love being an Army wife
13. My husband and I met online
14. Next month we'll celebrate our 6 year anniversary
15. I have lost 110 lbs in 2 years, 105 before in a year, before I got pregnant and what I gained plus 5 lbs since I've had the baby
16. I've worked my butt off to do so, literally
17. I love working out now
18. I love 70's rock music, Bob Seger, Lynyrd Skynyrd, ZZ Top, Jackson Browne ect.... My dad kinda ingrained that in our heads :)
19. Jackson Browne is coming to the state in Oct, I would like to go
20. I've seen Lynyrd Skynyrd and ZZ Top in concert--They are both AWESOME
21. I love seeing elderly couples holding hands, it's so cute
22. Growing up I always wanted a relationship like my parents, my dad always lit up when he saw my mom
23. I now have that kind of relationship, I love it!
24. I have an associates degree, I have started on my bachelor's but it's on hold until my
child(ren) are older
25. My goal in life has always been to first and foremost be a wife and mommy
26. I never quite got how much work babies really are until I had my own
27. I had a wonderful pregnancy and hope that any others to come are just as wonderful
28. There's nothing I love more than looking into my baby's baby blues
29. I have worked at 2 convenience stores and a newspaper
30. I really liked my job at the newspaper, except they were very biased and that drove me crazy
31. I love to write
32. I love to read
33. I live by my dad's motto, Family First
34. I haven't been able to sleep the past 2 weeks, Ryan won't let me
35. I have no idea why
36. I have noticed myself becoming more like my mom
37. I don't think that's a bad thing
38. My favorite color is purple
39. My birthstone is Emerald
40. I love that color too
41. Growing up I looked up to my brother
42. He was very mean to me
43. He has apologized several times, it's ok, I forgive him
44. I'm 5'7
45. I love spending time with my husband and son
46. I love baking
47. I'm going to be an aunt next May
48. I can't wait
49. My inlaws drive me crazy
50. They never call to check on my husband, I'm glad my family isn't like that
51. I don't tell my husband that they drive me crazy, that would be rude
52. I don't enjoy shopping
53. My middle name is Lee
54. Three of my cousin's middle names are also Lee
55. We named my baby after my brother and dad
56. I drive a Jeep Liberty
57. It's completely paid off, that makes me happy
58. I wish for nothing more than my son to be happy and healthy
59. I try my best to live my life for the Lord
60. He is my Savior
61. I like to fish
62. I was very clutzy as a child
63. I believe Tae Bo has helped me with that
64. I have many questions about the timing of my dad's passing
65. I know he's much better off
66. It still hurts
67. I used to have my tongue pierced
68. I took it out several years ago
69. What was I thinking?
70. I'm picky about the length of the arms on my tshirts
71. I hate my arms
72. I love sappy love stories
73. My sister is homecoming candidate, I'm so proud of her!
74. Drinking hot cocoa on a cold day is wonderful
75. I adore my husband
76. He never ceases to amaze me
77. I wish I could have found a solution for winged scapula for my daddy
78. I tried with ever ounce of me
79. Dad used to get sad everytime we would say we had to go home
80. We had to give him a day's notice
81. He still got sad
82. My family is very close
83. I love taking pictures
84. My husband and I went to Maui after he got back from his deployment
85. That was the longest year of my life
86. It made our relationship even stronger
87. I pray he doesn't have to go back
88. My mom is the strongest woman I know, I admire her so much
89. I went 4-wheeling at the river for the first time this summer
90. It was fun
91. I have a cat named Gizmo
92. He lives with my mom
93. I love the Americana decor
94. Watching as my son grows brings me so much joy
95. I have a hard time making close friends
96. I'm very shy and reserved
97. My best friend (outside my family) lives in GA now
98. I hope we're stationed together again someday
99. Our son's are almost 2 months apart
100. Nothing makes me happier than being with the one's I love
101. This was a lot harder than I thought it would be

I'm frustrated with myself. I feel like I've not been myself for quite some time. I feel like I need answers. I need to open my heart and hear God. Ever since I lost my dad and had Ryan and everything else that's gone on in my life I just feel like I haven't allowed myself the opportunity to be. I have a serious addiction to the scale, I weigh myself approximately 6 times a day (yes, every day). I fear weight gain. I know it's not healthy to be obsessed with it. There's only so much a person can do. I exercise every day, I eat right, I don't drink pop, I usually rarely eat sweets (although that's another thing I'm mad at myself for lately, I've had a never-ending sweet tooth). In total since I began my journey when Eric was deployed I have lost 110 lbs. I have worked so hard to get to this point. I'm happy with where I'm at on the scale. I just know that gaining it back isn't an option. However, if all of that doesn't keep my weight down perpetually weighing myself isn't going to help now is it? So, I'm taking back control of myself, to include my mind. I put up the scale so it doesn't call my name every time I walk into the bathroom. I'm seeking the Lord's help. I believe that with His help I will find the answers I seek. I will find my groove again. I just have to clear my head and regain control of myself. With God ALL things are possible!

Why is it that people in customer service jobs don't seem to realize they are in CUSTOMER SERVICE jobs? It's irritating to me to be "helped" by someone who is rude and acts like they could care less about their jobs and the people they are helping. The least you can do is pretend to be friendly for pete's sake. I've had my fair share of jobs that I haven't particularly liked, but I still slapped a smile on my face and greeted them with courtesy.

So the other day we went to my grandma's house. Mom mom needed her oil change. I offered to have Eric take it and get it changed. He would have bought the stuff and did it himself but there was no place to do it at my grandma's. We go to the store, drive around back give them the keys. Eric says to do just the basic oil change and to put the high mileage stuff in. They tell us it's going to take 3 HOURS! Well I wanted to leave but Eric really wanted to get it done for my mom so we waited, and waited and waited. When it was finally finished we go to pay. They charged us $52! They did the whole shabang, not the basic change. We both were mad and both tried to argue with them but the lady was so rude. So, Eric goes to pay and she looks up at me and says, "Next time tell him to change his own oil!" Are you kidding me?! Well, needless to say, they won't be getting our business any longer. Eric always changes our oil here at home. We simply needed a service provided that time. Neither of us asked for attitude.

So, if you're going to work in customer service, service the customer without attitude. Without being rude and hateful. Do your JOB, what you're paid for.